Have you ever felt so completely discombobulated? It seems to be daily fair for me lately. So much is running through my mind with little direction or patience to lead me in any one direction for enough time to fully complete a single task. I am not super mom, although I have to honestly say that I strive to be. I want to be the Mommy that can handle anything. All of life’s twists and turns, the ups and downs of juggling a fabulous husband and his 7 little offspring. How I envy their energy, joy and resilience. They seem to bounce back from whatever life throws their way. Me…I bounce, just in all the wrong spots. LOL! This last pregnancy has left me heavier than I have ever been in my life, and the journey to get back in shape is going to be a challenge. I would like to start with my eating habits, but it is hard due to my breastfeeding baby’s sensitive tummy. What can I eat? Who knows. I ask myself that everyday! No dairy, no eggs, no rice, no green veggies, no red veggies, etc. It is definitely taking it’s toll on my energy and state of mind. The kids are no worse for wear, but I feel the weight of my lack of sleep combined with my poor food options and added body mass. So what is my plan you ask? Well, I just started physical therapy for my chronic back issues, muscle spasms to be exact, no doubt from being pregnant or nursing over the last 13 years! Along with PT, I am trying to start yoga and nightly walks…I say trying because I have yet to attend a single yoga class! Life keeps getting in the way. Aghhhh. I am sure you all have experienced that happening a time or two. And as for the walks….well, let’s say that I am full of good intentions Aren’t we all. Someone once told me that good intentions pave the way to hell. Man, I really hope that isn’t the case.
Among all the chaos of life and daily challenges, I did manage to buy a whole lot of meat and divvy it up into family portions, added some different sauces and froze those bad boys. It is convenient to have them all ready to go; to pull out in the morning so that dinner is ready when Rich gets home. Now if I could only remember to pull them out in the AM so they will be thawed in time Heeheehee. Seriously, there are days when I tell the kids to fend for themselves. It is interesting to see what they come up with. They are quite resourceful little monkeys. My kitchen always ends up looking like a bunch of wild monkeys ransacked it anyway, so have at it kiddos!
Is anyone else absolutely OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) over the mess in their house? I never want to be the mommy that stays home and has a huge family with fingerprints all over the walls, dirt in every corner and a mountain of laundry that kills my washing machine every few months because it seems to never stop long enough to cool down. The constant hum of the washer and dryer is probably a sound that would rock all my little ones to sleep. Yet despite all my efforts, that is my home. I think most of my trouble comes from me beating my head against the idea of who I really am. I am a mom, with a messy home, dirty face and footed children and Mount Everest in my laundry room.
I often find myself thinking about the song “Dirty Dishes” by Scotty McCreery. Simply put, I have so much to be thankful for. Endless dishes in the sink, noisy children and mountains of laundry. But with each of those things, I have children that have plenty to eat, laughter coming from my children’s mouths and clearly enough clothes to keep them warm and covered. If you haven’t listened to the song, please do. That is my life to a T! I honestly think he wrote it for me.
Okay, I feel better. So even though I manage to bitch (sorry) and moan, I am truly grateful for all that I have. None of my life was burdened upon me. It was all a conscious decision and I would never change a moment of it. But if, if, if, if I could have a super power, it would be to never be upset by the little things in life. To take everything as what it is. A gift. Remember, we don’t all get the same gifts, and that is for a reason. But none the less, to see everything for what it is. An opportunity to better myself and those around me through love.
So I challenge all of you to try to do the same. Find something today that would normally drive you crazy and ready to throw someone through the window for and thank God for it. I am going to thank God for that damn TV in the living room that my children keep sneaking on while I am occupied writing this. I am thankful for this time of peace and the opportunity to share this blog with all of you. Even if in the meantime my little monkeys are being disobedient to my rules. Hey, now I get to have them pull some weeds in the front yard for disobeying me! Man, this is GREAT! I should do this more often. There will always be a snowball rolling somewhere, you might just need to give it a little push Have a great day. Miss you all!